Why Reflection is a Necessary Part of Life...

I've been stuck all day and finally came to a breaking point. What the hell do I want to do with my LIFE?? I've been pacing for hours talking to myself and trying to pinpoint why I'm feeling the way I do. Asking myself some hard questions and resting in the discoveries I've found.

Here's what I've come to:

1) Learn to manifest the Truth from within yourself.

2) Confront and define my fears.

3) Pursue what I've discovered.

4) Find someone to connect to.

5) List the reasons why I'm choosing not to grow from this realization.

6) Get over yourself.

These 6 points jumped out of me when I started wondering what I'm going to do this summer. Every summer that rolls around I feel like a void is in place. I'm used to grinding out the week and when there's a lull I feel like something is missing. Why can't I just be comfortable with "being". Here are some other points that came to mind..

What is fulfillment and how do I get me some of that?

Am I comfortable with the path I'm on?

Can I succeed in life or will I fail?

These are the type of tough questions I need to ask myself EVERY DAY! What I've realized at 35 years of age is that this isn't new to me. I've just become comfortable in 'thinking' that I know all of this stuff. What an idiot!! How could I lose sight of living in the now of every moment of every day of my life?! 

I've allowed uncertainty to crawl into my head and take over! Let me remind myself that the human brain is capable of an infinite amount thoughts and somehow I have let a fraction of 1 percent of those thoughts take control. For those that are reading this please share in saying this with me "NO MORE"!

No more feeling inferior because the world isn't ready for me. No more devaluing myself because others don't get it. I am here, I am loving, and I'll wait patiently to share in the giving of that love. I will grow and learn and be better by finding the peace within myself that as long as I come from that space of love I'll be okay. Thank you Jesus, thank you Ghandi, thank you Buddha, thank you mom, thank you friends and family.

DAMN THAT FELT GOOD!